Wasted 7 Years: Living for Others, and How I Broke Free
It's a feeling I bet a lot of you know: the feeling of being stuck. Like you're living someone else's life, not your own. It's like you're a character in a story you didn't write. That's how I felt for 7 long years.
The Early Years: Living For Everyone But Myself
I was always the good girl. The responsible one. The one everyone could count on. I excelled in school, got into a great university, and even had a steady boyfriend. But somewhere along the line, I lost myself. I was so busy pleasing everyone else, I completely forgot about what I wanted.
My family expected me to go to med school, my boyfriend expected me to be the perfect girlfriend, and my friends expected me to be the life of the party. And you know what? I was all those things, but at what cost? I became a shell of a person, living a life that wasn't mine.
The Breaking Point:
Then came the moment of truth. I was in my final year of university, supposed to be applying for medical schools. But, I just couldn't do it. I felt empty, lost, and completely unfulfilled. I was a robot going through the motions, pretending to be happy.
Taking Back Control:
Something inside me snapped. I finally realized I was living for everyone else except myself. I needed to make a change, and fast. I told my family I didn't want to be a doctor, dumped my boyfriend (who was honestly, kind of a jerk), and took a year off to figure things out.
The Long, Winding Road:
That year was a whirlwind of soul-searching. I tried new things, traveled, and spent time with people who genuinely cared about me. It was a long road, but I finally started to understand what I wanted out of life.
Finding My Path:
Turns out, I was passionate about writing! It was something I loved doing as a kid, but had completely forgotten about. So, I started writing again. I took classes, joined writing groups, and even started my own blog. It felt so liberating, finally expressing myself authentically.
Living My Truth:
It's been a few years since that life-changing moment. And guess what? I'm finally happy. I still struggle sometimes, but I'm no longer living for others. I'm living for me.
The Takeaway:
If you're feeling lost, remember you're not alone. Take a step back, figure out what you want, and don't be afraid to make changes. Your life is your story, and you deserve to be the author.
And remember, it's never too late to start living for yourself.